My Comfortable World Isn’t Comfortable Anymore
I have always considered myself a pretty patient person. I feel like I can be very flexible if need be. I have great discernment about people and usually can see through most manipulations. I can put up with a lot but I really hate drama; especially if it isn’t needed. I guess I feel like I kinda know the ropes since I have lived through 14 children. I have survived fourteen teenagers and helped put ten of those through college. And now with 33 grandchildren and 13.75 great grandchildren there isn’t much I haven’t experienced in one way or another. I am a high energy person and an early morning person. I love to stay busy and I love people. I love structure and knowing where I am going and what lies ahead. I say all this to say; all of a sudden I am finding myself more and more frustrated with the world around me. What’s happened to my comfortable world? I hate to watch the news! I hate Facebook and all the stupid things people post! Who cares if you painted your kitchen… and the drama!!! I’m finding myself being very non patient and with an attitude!
After working from home for 10 weeks when all this Covid-19 started, I have to tell you at the end of the ten weeks I was MORE than ready to get back into the workplace where there were real live people. I found myself in a depressed state and found myself not really caring if I got up in the morning or not. And not really very patient about everything going on in what used to be my very comfortable world.
I questioned what was happening to me. Am I just getting old? Getting crotchety in my old age? Need a real vacation? What??? They did what???
I think I was and still am experiencing the disease called the “New Normal Coronavirus Covid-19 Syndrome.” Can’t go to the store or in public without a mask, don’t have to wear a mask, need to Clorox everything, don’t have to disinfect everything, can’t socialize with more than 45 people, can march in riots of 500 or more without a mask, can’t sing in church, can sing in church, can send kids to school, can’t send kids to school, can eat in restaurants, can’t eat in restaurants, don’t go down that isle because the arrow says you can’t, it’s alright if you don’t follow the arrows, and on and on it goes.
I see pictures of people purposing spiting in juice bottles on the shelves or biting into the fruit on the shelves and putting it back upside down. I hear of single parents trying to eke out a living working 3 jobs because they lost their factory job because of one person having the virus. I see people expressing their anger by rioting and burning buildings. I hear of people dying alone and of people having to go through surgeries alone. Sometimes I really questioned what in the world is going on in my world! I find myself still questioning what God is doing in all of this today. My comfortable world isn’t comfortable any more.
I don’t have the answers. The same issues are going on now in July that was going on in March. There are still debates over sending or not sending kids back to school. There are questions about all this being politically driven. There are still people getting the virus and dying from the virus. There is still the issue over the wearing of masks and threats of another shut down happening if we don’t. I find myself feeling like I am falling into this trap of the “New Normal” and I don’t like it.
Like I said I don’t have any answers, but one thing I do have is the assurance that God is still in control and that our hope is in Him. That the Word of God is still the absolute truth!
Am I tired of all this and nothing being normal? You bet I am. Does it try my patience more than anything my kids could have done? Yes! Do I have to put my attitude into check more often than ever before? Yes! But one thing is for certain, I have to always remember who I am! I am a child of God! And He is still Lord of all! He is still in control of my not so comfortable world! And I still need to be Jesus to a lost and dying world!
For the word of the Lord is right and true;
he is faithful in all he does.
The Lord loves righteousness and justice;
the earth is full of his unfailing love.
By the word of the Lord the heavens were made,
their starry host by the breath of his mouth.
He gathers the waters of the sea into jars;
he puts the deep into storehouses.
Let all the earth fear the Lord;
let all the people of the world revere him.
For he spoke, and it came to be;
he commanded, and it stood firm.
The Lord foils the plans of the nations;
he thwarts the purposes of the peoples.
But the plans of the Lord stand firm forever,
the purposes of his heart through all generations.
Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord,
the people he chose for his inheritance.
From heaven the Lord looks down
and sees all mankind;
from his dwelling place he watches
all who live on earth--
he who forms the hearts of all,
who considers everything they do.
No king is saved by the size of his army;
no warrior escapes by his great strength.
A horse is a vain hope for deliverance;
despite all its great strength it cannot save.
But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him,
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,
to deliver them from death
and keep them alive in famine.
We wait in hope for the Lord;
he is our help and our shield.
In him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in his holy name.
May your unfailing love be with us, Lord,
even as we put our hope in you